I woke up it was seven
Waited till eleven
Just to figure out that no one would call.
I think I got a lot of friends
But I don’t hear from them.
What’s another night all alone?
When you're spending every day on your own
And here it goes...

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid and I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world
Is havin’ more fun then me

And maybe when the night is dead
I’ll crawl into my bed
Staring at these four walls again
I’ll try to think about the last time
I had a good time,
Everyone’s got somewhere to go
And their gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid and I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world
Is havin’ more fun then me

What the fuck is wrong with me?
Don’t fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?

Wide awake I'm bored and I can’t fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid and I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world
Is havin’ more fun then me

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid and I know that it’s not fair

Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is…
Nobody wants to be alone and the world

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid and I know that it’s not fair

Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is…
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me, tonight

I'm all alone ...
Tonight
Nobody cares...
Tonight
Cuz I'm just a kid, tonight

"I'm Just A Kid"
Simple Plan

I guess my feelings don't matter to you.
You think it is some kind of joke and
probably are laughing about it.
But now, I have to think about what
you meant, and what I think you meant,
I hope is not what you really meant.

But if it is, no need to think about me.

Cuz now I am left by myself
Being an emotional wreck cuz
you don't care what you said
to me.

YEA OKAY I AM DONE.

I can't take this anymore. I really hate being in the middle of this and being tossed around like a hot potato. None of you care about how I feel about this...you just avoid the problem, but I get things from both sides that drive me crazy. Why can't it be over with...everyone is acting so childish.

Making the same plans with two different sets of people is driving me crazy...i don't understand how one night of a stupid mistake, that is understandable....everyone makes freaking mistakes....has to ruin a friendship that has lasted so long. If thats how you want to have it....then I don't care, I just can't be a part of this anymore. You really don't see what this is doing to me...but it is not like it matters, like I matter anymore.

Saw ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND , finally!
It was really quite interesting...I won't say anything cuz some of you still want to see it, but I will say you have to see it.

Wednesday is gonna be so crazy...am I suppose to say anything....or is it a secret?.....like the napkin!!!

Yea so Number 11 on my list didn't last very long. And I still don't know, Dima... I think the whole idea is just crazy. Why not? ahhh... no more why nots!!

So if I think about this situation of mine more...my favorite candy might be recontinued.

Things To Do Over Break:

1. Go see movie, ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND
2. Camp out in my tent
3. Go to the Zoo
4. Go to Downtown Chicago
5. Be Happy :/
6. Take Lots o' Pictures
7. "Haunka Matata"
8. Have a Dance Party (a real one, where people actually get up and dance)
9. Downtown Napeville (check)
10. Don't think about school
11. Stop thinking about guys and how much they mess up your life >:o
12. Any other Ideas!!??

:-( My favorite candies have been discontinued. :'(

Does anyone really care about me?

My problems are pointless to most people.

and I will never 'have' someone that cares about about me the way I care about them.

So what's the point?

And why bother ever liking someone if they don't even know you exist and when they do, they don't care about your feelings.

This so called 'plan' for my life, well in simple terms: SUCKS!

It's over!!!...mixed emotions right now.
I love all the free time I am getting but at the same time I know most of that we be alone time.
Which I think sucks...I mean, sleeping in is the best part, but what am I to do the rest of the day??

I should plan an event for each day...and just hang out with random people, kinda like during gym today.
That didn't turn out to bad, just that I felt like a loser.

Oh well...

Speaking of gym class...
You know what is really sad?
I shouldn't be saying this cuz now people are gonna be asking questions. And...no I will not say
(still). It's a mystery!
Anyways, I like someone. Someone that I liked most of sophomore year. Its crazy! I just can't get rid of him. I never really did either. It was because of math class. Blame it all on Math!!

Yea...all I will say is that he is a football player, but he doesn't hang out with that group. You know who I am talking about.

Why am I saying this...nothing will happen...cuz I am sooo freakin stupid.

I have problems. Thats all there is to it

1...
more
day!!!

"I'm so excited...I just
can't hide it!!"

even though I will be completely bored the whole break, I am so looking forward to it!!

NO SCHOOL for ONE week!!!

Oh man!!

2...

"I don't wish to be everything to everyone,
but I would like to be something to someone."

3...

Excuse me.

Am I suppose to not ever get mad?

Is that how you see me?

Yea, "what was the f***" with that?

I hope that your night was fun.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!

Scratch that last entry....


GO KRISTA!!!!!!

I am so happy for you!!!

My Life Sucks.

Get me out of my house.

I can't take this anymore.

Don't ask.

Genre: Idiots
Don't you just love............

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time. I know where
my watch is pal, where is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I
ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room
for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the
channel manually.

3. When people say, "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too".
That’s right! What good is a cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is.
Why would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this?
Who and where are they? (The asylum is my guess)

5. When something is 'new and improved!’ Which is it? If it's new, then
there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there
must have been something before it.

6. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks, "Has the bus come yet?".
Yes, the bus has come. That's why I'm standing here waiting for it

7. People who say things like 'my eyes aren't what they used to be. So
what did they used to be? Ears, gum, boot?

8.When your eating something and someone asks 'Is that nice?' No it's
really revolting, I always eat stuff I hate.

9. People who announce they are going to the toilet.
Thanks that's an image I really didn't need.

10. When you're involved in an accident and someone asks 'Are you alright?’
Yes fine thanks, I'll just pick up my limbs and be off

Yesterday...errr now I have that song stuck in my head....anyways...yesterday was very much a party...ha...we haven't had girls night out in like forever. It was fun. It's amazing how fun stalking people and trying to kidnap people actually is!! After many failed attempts, we went back to Krista's house and watched "How to Deal". That movie was the craziest thing ever. I won't go into detail for those of you that haven't seen it and are planning to. But the best character is the Grandma, haha. Yea so then we went to Baker Square where we had pie...yummy...ha, no.... The night seemed longer then how I am explaining it...hmmm....oh well, It was a fun Saturday!!

Firday was also a party, for Laura!!! Happy 17 turning!! Anywho, the party was so much fun, except for the part of me getting sick...o man...thanks for caring Krista!!! So at the party we sang the night away mostly. There was also DDR...it is so much fun watching people making fools out of themselves. We really need to have more parties like that, having the groups combine like that... it is fun!!!

Today, I sat in front of the TV all day watching car racing...Junior won!! Kahne came in 3rd!! and Biffle came in 8th!! No one cares but I just feel like putting that in there so it looks like I wrote a lot, because I am getting complaints that I don't write enough on this. Well then....I am sorry. Haha, I'm just joking!!!

:)

"O What a Night"

Even though I didn't go to Spring, it was such a great day. After being bored and lazy the first part of the day, I decided that I should do something. So I went over to Krista's house for pictures. Everyone looked so pretty and handsome. So after the picture taking I had to go to Downers Grove for us girls that didn't want to go to the dance. Well, plans change and change again. It was Krista and John, Lola and Thurston, Lauren and Morley. They all were gonna go to dinner and decided I should go along too. It was fun while it lasted!! Haha, my mom is no fun. I had a fun time with Dima, Ashley, Lea, Kristin, and Allison though!! We didn't get to go bowling because of me. I am sorry. Instead we just went and had pizza and then we went to Colleen's Ice Cream shop. It was yummy!! Then were gonna see a movie but it was all sold out. We went to Ashley's house and watched "The Emperors New Groove" instead. That movie is soooo funny. You have to go rent it!! After that we went to Jewel and picked up a squash!! Remember Squash Day!! Anyways, we then went to Colleen's after party. It was so fun, everyone that I didn't see before the dance was there and looked so pretty too!! I liked our little camp fire time that Ashleigh made up. All and all it was a fun time!!

And now everyone knows!! It is amazing how news can travel so fast in this group!! But yes.

Do you know what my favorite candy is right now??
M&M.
LOL!!!!

T- I - double GRR - E - R!!

Today is so cloudy. It should be sunny. You why it should be sunny?
It's the Spring Dance!!

I hope all of you have fun tonight...I am gonna try and make it to see you guys before the dance. I am so excited for you. I don't know why...I just am!!

I wanna go to the after party too...but I don't know how things are gonna turn out...I'll try my hardest to get there tho!!

Anyways...HAVE FUN!!!!