Finally the weekend...the actual one with two days off. No tricks this time.

So yea...in for a 'grand' time tonight, ushering and all. I heard that the play is really good and funny. We will see. I hope that it is, cuz I really need to relax and have a laugh. I don't know what my problem was yesterday. I felt so dumb after I thought about how I acted and I am really really sorry. But there is nothing I can do now. If people want to think less of me, go right ahead...I can take it. Ha, thats a lie, but I have learned to live like that, people thinking less of me cuz of one stupid incident. Oh well.

K. This weekend needs to be 'happy'...what can I do to make things 'happy'?? Well everyone is off doing other things so, I have to do stuff on my own. Maybe I'll take a walk, or even ride my bike. Hmmm.... I did all my homework before one today...thats 'happy'!! Except for the stuff I left at school. I never leave things at school but luckily I am going to the play tonight. What a Lifesaver!! Ha...ooo I should buy some of those. How Random!?!

Oh Cubbies won yesterday 3-1, thats happy!! And my grandpa's b-day is tomorrow and we are gonna eat KFC....and I finished Catcher....so this is turning out to be a 'happy' weekend.... according to kim...

HAPPY EARTH DAY!!!

Hope you are having as much fun as I am!! No, I hope for a better day for you.

This sux. We have a Thursday off and all I am doing is homework. On days off you should have fun, but nooo, we have to have school tomorrow. I hope that it rains so I don't feel so bad for not doing anything. It won't happen and I will be stuck inside on a perfectly good day. Errrr....darmn school.

*It's raining!!!

*It's pouring.

Speaking of rain, today my bus driver came at 3:45, like 20 minutes after everyone else was gone. And I was soaked to the bone. It was horrible. Everyone on my bus wanted to kill him. Haha! I would have joined, but we had a sub. Argh. There is always tomorrow. :O

So yea. The rest of the day kinda sucked too, but hey, not expecting to have any good days in the near future. No actually, tomorrow will be good when I don't have to talk to anyone. Ha.

Go DAY OF SILENCE!! ACtually, the more I think about it, I decided it won't be much fun at all. But I will do it cuz no one else would be talking so I might as well join in. Ha...it would be funny if a whole class was doing it and the teacher went crazy. ha...if only...

Oh man...Cubbies on at 6. They are gonna win!! Hopefully!!!

who knew that a hair cut would be the end of the world? GOD! I hate this.
i am gonna kill myself to make this family understand what they put me through.
It's the only way to get through to them.
My mother screams at me cuz senior pictures are in a month, and this is the worst hair cut ever.
IT IS ONE FREAKING HAIR CUT, and now it has to ruin my whole life.

I am so sorry that I am putting this up on here, but I am having a breakdown and don't know what to do. I am like crying over here, but my mother only cares about...well not me, thats for sure. I can't take it anymore.

Getting hair cut in two minutes! Ha exciting stuff. Don't freak, it's just a trim.

Cubbies won today 8-1!! Woahoa!!

Nothing else really.

Go Cubbies... I thought that I would change the background just for a little while.

They just lost 3-2. But it's all good.

Yesterday was mucho fun. The windows looked so cool when I last say them. Do you know that we got 'kicked out' of the school. I had to get my gym clothes and on the way back, this girl was like, senior celebration is tonight and no students are allowed in the school. Argh janitors. So we decided to go get something to eat. (Krista, John and me) We went to Quizno's and Krista got me a M&M cookie!! It was exciting. But there were no reds. Sad. We then went to get Lola at work and then partied the night away. Ha not really, but sure.

I dunno if I can go to Lauren's tonight. But if anyone reads this before you go, can you please make me a shirt!!!!?? I will love you forever!!! Thanks ahead of time if you do!!

Cubs win again... 10-5!!

I am chewing that gum from Jess, and I blew a bubble inside a bubble. It was so exciting!

Ha wow...no life, or an exciting anyways.

I love you, and you, and you....and yes of course, you too!!!! And you, well, we have to work on it. :O :O :O :O :O

Cubbies win: 8-3!!

I was so excited...when I got on the bus today, we had a sub and she had the Cubs game on the radio. It just made my day!!

NO actually, my shirt my day... I love it!! LOL *Made you Smile*

Oh man...right now I am eating some M&M's that I got from the Easter bunny, and there are so many red ones!! ;) It is very interesting how that happened. I think I should eat them and be done with it. OOoo...a blue one too... :O

Malte has to stay here with Jeff!! At least until the concert is over. Ha...which I am probably not even going to. I have never really heard there music, so I don't even know if I will like it. Oh well, even if I didn't end up going, I have the feeling it wouldn't affect anyone... that's the feeling I have been getting lately from some people... so yea... decided not to go. No Biggie.

My cousin is getting confirmed as I type...it is very exciting. He asked my dad if he would sponsor him. That is so sweet. I think that I should start going to some classes to get my conformation over with. What stinks is I will be the oldest one in the class since I didn't do it freshman year. But oh well.

Yea, so haven't started the homework yet. What else is new? I hate this whole school thing. Mrs. Harrold brought up a good point the other day: education is wasted on youth. She said that it should be, if you want to take some time off and then come back and finish off high school, you should be able to. I wish that was true, cuz right now I can't seem to handle anything right now. I think that I might have a brain tumor or something, cuz I can't remember anything. I really need to get my brain checked out. My scores just keep getting worse even though I put the effort I can into the class. It doesn't make sense.

Today was tax day at McDonald's!! Hamburgers were $.39? and Cheeseburgers were $.49?!! Yummy... so I was a pig and ate one of each. I have to run those off in gym now. But tomorrow in gym we are walking on the track cuz of the blood drive, so it all works out.

It was so weird today. When I got home, my dad was home and was watching the Sox (booo!!). They were winning 8-6, top of the 9th, other team batting, and I was like "I hope the other team scores three" so the Sox would lose. As soon as I said that, this guy hits a homer with one man on base (tying the game, Krista :P). Then the next guy up hits a homer to make it 9-8. I was so freaked out, cuz I had just said that like two minutes before. The Sox ended up scoring two more to win, but it was weird. Then the mailman came, and I get the mail, which I never do. And today we got our report cards, so I was so glad I got the mail. I got all A's and B's this quarter. I am proud of myself. *pat on the back* I know all the rest of you got all A's, so just leave me alone. :P

Wow, I wrote a lot today. Most of it non sense, and most of you who started reading this, probably didn't end up reading this line!!

The Cubbies got their butts kicked today. :'(
It's just one game though, they have like 185 more!!

Anyways...today was okay I guess. Except for this whole thing I kept coming back to. I do like him then I don't. I can't make up my freaking mind. Like at the dance I liked him, until that girl was dancing with him all the time. Then when I was leaving, I made up my mind that I didn't like him, but of course today that changed again. I am so stupid, why does this keep reoccuring???

Okay so enough with this, I have better things I should be worrying about. Like Everwood is starting in like 5 minutes!! :P

I had the best week ever and then I had to ruin it by going to the dance. I wish someone would have told me that I was going to get so depressed. But no one can predict the future. And I don't know what I am saying so yea...anyways...back to the dance. I was so excited for this dance the whole week, getting skirt and everything was so much fun. Then Thursday at school, it kinda hit me that I might not have much fun...cuz I had no one to dance with. I mean I have my friends to dance with, but me being the dork that I am, I wanted just ONE slow song with a guy. I dunno why, but I just did. Ha, thanks Krista for offering John to me.

OMG...everyone in the band, YAY to you. Everyone looked so pretty in there little suits!! ;D And to all who sang....great job!! Yea, so when the one band was playing, I forget which one it was, maybe Jazz Band, I was rethinking this whole thing about...umm yea... and I wish that I had done something about it. But at the last slow dance, I saw him with that girl that he is always with, and it just made me sad for some reason. I get really jealous over the stupidest things you can think of. It drives me crazy. I need to change... I decided.

So Dima, I should have stuck to your plan earlier in the night, but I was, well me, the stupid one. But there is nothing I can do now. Well, I know there is something, but I don't wanna i guess.

40's Dance tonight!!

This is gonna be so much fun!! Even though most of the night I will be standind there watching everyone dance. Oh well.

Ashleigh J. is gonna be there...hopefully she doesn't do what she did last year...going around, making out with everyone!! haha!, thankfully I wasn't a part of that.

I really should ask the german boy to dance...I figured it out Lola... Mochtest du tanzen? haha... I should totally do that. It would make the night.

Oh man...gotta get ready!! Cya all there!!

Haben Sie Spass am Tanz! ;D

I am such a bad friend.
I am sorry.
How do I become a better one?